High in High Places                                  part 3 of 3

Outrageous Fortune

Partly because of their reverence for pot and partly because they believe they use marijuana responsibly, many adult pot smokers feel they suffer unfair persecution and are outraged at what they consider the ridiculousness--and, for some, harmfulness--of government policy. "I think that it is criminal what our government is doing to hemp smokers," Herbert asserts.

Randy, 35, a self-described "weekend dabbler" with marijuana and software writer for a Silicon Valley company, asserts, "It's not as strong as alcohol, it doesn't cause violent or anti-social behavior. The government has no place legislating it. Hell, I don't even drink. I just have one vice and that's smoking pot."

Feelings of unjust persecution have lead some users to speculate on the origins of the current pot prohibition: "The government in combination with the Mafia and the alcohol lobby will never permit legalization of marijuana and it's a damn shame," writes one 49-year-old mother of four.

Outrage increases when users have experienced what they consider marijuana's medical benefits. Because they use recreationally, medical benefits are often discovered as a side effect, sort of an extra-added bonus. In some cases, users have introduced parents and spouses suffering from cancer and other illnesses to pot, and to their amusement now find themselves supplying their 80-year-old mothers with the occasional bag. "My father would die if he found out," says Rose, who gives marijuana to her bed-bound mother. Rose also uses marijuana to control her own asthma.

One young woman says she smokes to forestall "very bad menstrual cramps. It works like a dream. And I think it should be legalized." Eric Harlow, 61, introduced his wife to marijuana. Suffering from kidney cancer, she uses marijuana to control the discomfort of radiation treatment. "She has found relief in the prevention of vomiting, in increase of appetite and pain reduction. Physicians can't prescribe marijuana," Harlow says, "and that's a crime."

Getting High Gets No Respect

Marijuana, as currently defined in hemp debates, is confined to three categories: hemp for industry, marijuana for medicine, and pot for recreational use--the last of which is considered least useful in arguments for reform of marijuana laws. Yet some argue that if the rational, responsible use of marijuana were addressed, the hemp advocacy movement in general would bound forward.

Lester Grinspoon, a psychiatrist at the Harvard School of Medicine, is the latest high-status professional to turn pro-pot, much to the horror of the anti-drug crowd, which prefers to paint the marijuana reform movement as composed primarily of hippies. Grinspoon, once a detractor of pot, has become a major proponent of marijuana-law reform. He is author of the landmark tome Marihuana Reconsidered and has recently co-authored with attorney and Harvard lecturer James Bakalar Marihuana: The Forbidden Medicine and an article published in the Journal of the American Medical Association pleading for fellow physicians to speak out in favor of medical marijuana use.

Grinspoon had planned another work, on the use of pot by artists and professionals, but says he's been busy with the release of Forbidden Medicine. He did, however, conduct some related interviews. One problem, Grinspoon says, is that "recreational use is too general a term" for what people do with marijuana. "There are people who write, and musicians who find it terribly important to their work, people who believe that some of their best ideas come from smoking marijuana. It's difficult because we're pigeonholed into the terms 'recreational' use and 'medical' use."

As a physician, however, Grinspoon worries that a shift in the terms of debate from medical use to recreational or other use might be premature. "I'd be a little concerned about that," he admits, adding that his main concern is getting marijuana into the hands of patients.

But it may be too late to restrict the marijuana debate to pot's puritanical uses. Anti-drug warriors have already raised suspicion about the motives of medical marijuana activists. The highly visible Michigan Office of Drug Control Policy published in a paper titled "The Marijuana as Medicine Scam" that "the marijuana as medicine issue is a carefully orchestrated campaign by an organized and well-financed pro-drug culture lobby, primarily supported by aging hippies, lawyers and marijuana users who are imposing a cruel hoax on sick and dying people to gain support for their drug of choice for selfish personal use."

Some believe the smoke might clear if those who smoked marijuana to get stoned fought as actively for the reform of marijuana laws as those who claim hemp will save the world. Americans who think pot smokers are mostly "aging hippies" might change their minds if they knew that their bosses, co-workers, dentists, stockbrokers and attorneys smoke pot, and do fine.

"I think there's a parallel there to homosexuality," Grinspoon notes of stereotypes surrounding marijuana users. Being gay, he observes, became much more acceptable "when professional, working people came out of the closet. They demonstrated that people can be gay and be perfectly respectable citizens. That corrected the old, abused stereotype. Until people are really ready to stand up and be counted, marijuana will continue to have a stigma."

Ironically, it is this stigma that stymies the efforts of those who push hemp for paper, hemp for clothing, hemp for fuel and hemp for medicine. Dr. Eric Voth, anti-drug crusader for the International Drug Strategy Institute, penned a letter to Dr. Grinspoon in 1994 attacking his efforts on behalf of medical marijuana. The letter closed with: "I have often mused about whether you actually smoke marijuana, how long you have smoked marijuana, and how much you smoke. I am quite interested in the answer to this question." Voth implies that if Grinspoon were a marijuana user his work and stature on the subject would go up in a cloud of smoke.

Some argue that one step in the hemp advocacy movement is to overcome the countercultural stigma associated with marijuana by initiating a wave of "outings." Americans don't have to be afraid that marijuana will permeate our society, they say. It already has.

Smoking Out Back

The obvious drawback to confessing marijuana use is admission of criminality--although penalties for casual use in California are mild. Possession of an ounce or less of pot is a misdemeanor. Growers face felony charges, and some of the smokers I spoke with do grow their own. Still, California courts are funneling busted dope-growers into diversion programs which offer pot criminals drug-counseling classes in exchange for cleared records.

Despite their enthusiasm to have their say in this article, however, most professional pot smokers I interviewed were adamant that they retain their anonymity. They report that co-workers and associates are not aware of--and in some cases would condemn--their marijuana use. They fear social stigma, the government and losing their jobs. "I would be mortified if confidentiality is not absolutely insured," wrote one manager in an email from a Sunnyvale corporation.

The extremely cautious will only call from pay phones and Frederick insisted we meet in person. Concerns are expressed about email messages that might be seen by superiors. Some mention their company's drug-testing programs: "My company now enforces urine testing for new hires. Though there's no current implications for existing personnel, I'd just as soon keep my name and company out of this."

People fear they might be stigmatized as flaky. "You think, 'Well, I don't care.' But ad clients are generally conservative and if I forgot something, they might think it's because I get stoned," says Mickey, who volunteers after hours for the medical marijuana movement.

Baby boomers apparently learned more from the '60s than how to roll joints. Many harbor a profound distrust of the government and police agencies. Mickey says when she's petitioning, she notices some people, "always in my age group," agree with the cause but won't sign up. "The baby boomers are real suspicious about where their names will end up," she says.

Most respondents have not been public advocates for decriminalization, which becomes more true as the smoker's professional status increases. Some feel that if anyone knew they smoked, they might lose their jobs altogether or give ammunition to competing co-workers. "To let some people know would compromise my power structure," Frederick says. "I don't see any reason to materialize the darts in their quarrel."

Bill, a 40-year-old marketing manager who makes $96,000 a year, uses marijuana solely to control his attention-deficit disorder but says it's "unnecessarily risky" to reveal his habit. "There is only the possibility of crippling my career," he notes dryly. Bill adds that he was a political activist in his youth and once had a frightening run-in with the DEA. He asks, "You think I want to stand in front of that express train?"

The irony for pot smokers is that their companies sponsor parties with fully stocked bars, and provide beer and wine at informal gatherings. Then there's the general nonchalance with which co-workers relate their raucous drinking stories. Yet the current unsmoky--if intoxicating--atmosphere makes admission difficult. "We're talking about the most unsanctified speech of our time," says Allen St. Pierre, deputy director at NORML. "The only worse thing you could say is, 'I sodomize young children.' "

The Lone Tokers

But some pot smokers believe the current smoke screen on rational discussion of marijuana use is just that, a smoke screen--and easily waved away. These people have come trooping out of their smoky closets, heads high.

Eric Garris is a desktop publisher for a trade magazine who makes roughly $50,000. He's also a former member of the Republican Central Committee and a full-time, full-tilt advocate for marijuana law reform. He admits that he smokes, and his co-workers know it. He even keeps legalization pamphlets on his desk. "I enjoy it," he asserts as his defense. Garris reports his 73-year-old mother has been smoking for 50 years. "I think they should sell it at the corner pharmacy," he says.

To date, Garris claims he has not suffered the negative backlash imagined by most professionals. "People tend to be judgmental initially. That's why it's important not to hide it, so that people know that someone who is effective, that they look up to and trust, is a pothead. You can hide who you are and hope that people will like you, or you can stand up for who you are and what you believe in and take the heat."

Mara Leveritt, senior editor for the Arkansas Times, took coming out one step further when she wrote an op-ed column for her paper last spring titled "Pot's not so bad":

For the past two decades, I have smoked, on average, about a joint a day. ... If long-term, regular users like myself felt free to articulate their experiences with marijuana, the walking, talking evidence we'd represent could put our marijuana laws to shame. We may not all be intellectual and moral paragons. ... On the other hand, few of us are wild-eyed marauders, genetic mutants, or drooling derelicts from whom society need protect itself. And as we get older, our lives begin to make the lies that have been broadcast about marijuana look even more ridiculous.

When the article came out, local police retaliated symbolically. They raided the home of a local NORML officer and confiscated a pound of marijuana and the NORML membership roster, which was later returned. Other than that?

"I got dozens and dozens of letters of support. Maybe two or three letters in opposition. I think one advertiser stopped advertising for a while, but then started again when nothing else seemed to happen," Leveritt says. She adds that as a court and police reporter for 20 years, she's seen her share of injustices perpetrated by the war on marijuana. "Families have been destroyed. People are going to prison for 20 years for selling marijuana while violent criminals are paroled."

Of Leveritt's letters of support, two came from federal inmates, both of whom pointed out that casual users have less to fear than those who provide the means of their use. "We in prison are paying with our lives for making it possible for responsible, hardworking Americans such as yourself to enjoy a harmless recreational high. If more people had the courage as you have to speak out, many of us could go back to our lives and children. Thanks for returning the favor," one inmate wrote.

"It's the prostitute and the John thing," Leveritt reflects. "They're in prison and here I am getting off. I believe it's incumbent on those people who smoke to do something. ... There were some risks to myself [in coming out] that I was willing to take. If people could assess those risks for themselves, there are probably a lot of people who could come out of the smoky closet. And there is a group of people now who are of a certain age- group and stage of life where they are productive and established. We can show that we're not just zoned out somewhere in a room full of smoke unable to focus our eyes. We can use our reputations and our credibility to make this point for common sense."

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